Looooose your mind

4:13PM - 69 things you may not know about me.

69 things you may not know about me

1. Initials:
A.C.S.

2. Name someone with the same birthday as you.
a horse i used to know named molly.

3. Where was your first kiss?
when i was three, i got married in my bedroom of my cabin.

4. For or agaist same sex marriage?
For!!

5. Are you homophobic?
no way.

6. Are you bisexual?
no, i loooove boys.

7. Do you believe in God?
in my own way. and i pray before i eat.

8. How many Canadian Provinces have you been to?
3 hahah

9. How many of the Canadian Provinces have you lived in?
uno. well...2 i kinda guess.

10. Have you ever lived outside of Canada?
nope way.

11. Name something you like physically about yourself.
my legs. i love to put good smelling creams on them to.

12. Something non-physical you like about yourself.
that im really loyal.

13. What's your mom's first name?
Catherine

14. What is your dream car?
hot pink limo, with a driver.

15. If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go?
Paris.

16. Have you ever had a sleep over with someone from the opposite sex? Who?
Kyle...Joel...Andrew...my cousins.

18. Do you download music?
indeed...*gasp* dont tell.

19. How many illegal things have you done?
not all that many.

20. Where would you want to go on a first date?
for a walk...and a movie.

22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
yes...it was nice.

23. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
no, fire works are to loud.

24. Do you like president Bush?
can't say i know the guy

25. Have you ever bungee jumped?
nope never. but i would tottaly love to.

26. Have you ever white water rafted?
eeek! never.

27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
bahahahha, robin member that. and mexico.

29. Have you met a real redneck?
my uncle and his son!!!

30. Are you racist?
never.

31. What song are you listening to right now?
erm..sunrise goodbyes-houstan calls.

32. What is your current favorite song?
hmm.. dani california i think. or sunrise goodbyes.

33. What was the last movie you watched?
in her shoes...ick.

35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
ummm...ikea.

36. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property?
not really...lemon...bahaha

37. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
bahahah all the time :P:P

39. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
their abs...or hands/hand movements.

40. Do you like yourself?
i guess...in gernal.

41. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
white hot chocolate with wip cream and caramel.

44. Say something totally random about yourself.
i cant stand touching klenex/paper towel. i will atcually throw up.

45. Do you have an iPod?
mini :)

46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
i get told i look like misha barton alot, wich is KICK ASS since shes like my favorite ever.

47. Whats your dad's name?
John

48. Do you have braces?
had them for 5 years...ick!

49. Are you comfortable with your height?
i wish i was taller

50. Do you like someone right now?
fuck yes, tottaly head over heals.

51. How tall are you?
5'5..and a bit.

52. Do you speak any other language other than english?
i kinda sorta speak spanish

55. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
no :(:(

56. Has anyone you were really close to passed away?
my great grandma :(

57. Do you watch MTV?
occasionally, but i dont watch tv.

58. What's something that really annoys you?
when people are lying in bed, and they dont stop moving...or the fact my feet NEVER stop twiching...ever.

59. What are some things you really like?
Food!!! music...boys.

60. Do you like Michael Jackson?
i guess i like some of his music.

61. Can you dance?
hahaha, when i want to. im a drummer, so i get the beat easily.

62. Have you ever surfed?
no...well i guess when i was 4 i tried a bit..

63. Do you know how to pump gas?
yepp.

64. Do you drive?
not yet...well some times.

65. What's the latest you have ever stayed out?
bout 3amish

66. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
yes...

67. Were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
lots. unfortunitly.

68. Have you ever been dared to do something you didn't want to do?
bahahaha...all the time.

69. What's your favorite province to live in?
Alberta!...or kewlona...i mean bc.

Current mood: tired

5:44PM - Random thing

Statements of Pure Honesty
Instructions:
Write fifteen statements,
Intended to different people.
Never tell which one is to who.

here we go...


1) i wish you would stick up for me more
2) i cant keep a secret from you no matter what! i love you!!
3) some times i think that what you talk about is annoying, but im addicted to your personality
4) I think you are retarded fucker, but i love you more then anyone, and the slightest thing you do effects me greatly, i love you so much.
5) YOUR DRIVING ME NUTS!! WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO STEAL ME, AND SHUT ME DOWN?!?! WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH YOU!?!?!?
6) i wonder if we are actually friends...:S
7) i hate you, my god your sooo inconciderate!!! i mean im not blind, i can see you planning everything!!!
8) some days i think i love you a little more then aloud.
9) you are sooo lucky!! i would do anything for what you have. gawd.
10) you are the biggest bitch, more horribly moody fucker i have ever met, and you drive me nuts, yet i cant leave you alone. and i love you more then sliced bread.
11) you have the most beautiful butt in the world.
12) i love everything about you, i can trust you with anything you are the most amazing ever!! i love jumping on you, cause i know you'll always catch me, you are great.
13) i dont know why you change so much for other people...i love everything about you the way that you normally are, you dont have to be difforent.
14) i cant believe that you would do that, i want to hit you, and scream at you, but when your infrount of you all i can do is hug you, and forgive you.
15) LAIR LAIR LAIR!! I CANT BELIVE I THOUGHT THINGS WOULD BE DIFFORENT, I CANT BELIEVE IM SUCH AN IDIOT! I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU.yet i love you...GOD DAMN GET OUT OF MY LIFE. I WISH I DIDNT HAVE YOUR BLOOD.

there :) skill.

Current mood: anxious

1:15PM

La La La, my boyfriend gets home from camp today!!!! WOOT WOOT!!! havent seen him/talked to him since...wednesday!! /goes crazy. havent made out with him since monday. GAH!!! i think i might be able to see him tomorow, but i dunno. i might have to wait until monday!!!!! haha /feels like such a skank.

Any ways i havent writen in a while...but im bored and have nothing better to do, but do what the emos do, WOOT LIVE JOURNAL! teehee. (no offence to emos)

My fight with my group of friends lets call them..."Cioso" because other laungagues are a good way to secretly say things, and find group names. and the other group we'll call
"O cordãos"

so Cisoso's and i got into a huge fight, and it really shitty, but i think its getting better hopfully....but its pretty much over O cordão's and im not sure what to do about it. because i love both of them alot. and im thinking about giving up friends all together as that would just be easyer. But most of me and the Cisoso's have made up, but there are two of them, that no matter what i do, they talk about me behind my back, they are just evil. which is a good thing about O cordãos because they fight ya sure, but its over love, and its done quietly, so no one knows, and its quickly taken care of, and never mean. and deffonitly no back stabbing. but the Cisoso's everyone knows, and it really mean, and i think some of them are just fighting for the sake of fighting, and im tired of it, i cant cry anymore, i cant yell any more, and i cant be mad any more. and if one more rumar gets spred about me, frick i think i might just go die. *sigh*

so im spending the weekend with O cordãos, im spending the night with one, and we are going to Hair the musical (OMGOGMOGM1!!) and then the next day im going to the mall with another one, and i think our boyfriends might come. which would be rad.

Current mood: tired

11:16PM - Weird test thing

--redneck--
[ ] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch?
[ ] Do you drive a four-wheeler?
[ ] Do you ride four-wheelers?
[x] Do you like to get dirty?
[ ] Do you like country music?
[ ] Do you have a broken car in your back yard?
[x] Do you own a cowboy hat?
[ ] Do you live on more then 2 acres?
[x] Do you have more than 4 different animals at your home?
Total: 3



--Goth--
[ ] Do you wear black eyeliner?
[ ] Is most of your clothing dark?
[ ] Do you think about death often?
[ ] Do you want to die?
[ ] Are you a social outcast?
[x] Are you pale?
[ ] Do you like Hot Topic?
[ ] Do you enjoy Tim Burton movies?
[ ] Are you mean?
Total: 1



--Punk--
[x] Can you skateboard
[x] Do you wear Vans?
[x] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?
[ ] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops?
[ ] Do you watch the x-games?
[x] Do you have any piercings?
[x] Do you like/wear mohawks?
[ ] Do you wear Band t-shirts?
[x] Have you called someone a poser?
Total: 6


--Prep--
[x] Do you say the word "like"?
[x] Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch/Aero?
[ ] Do you pop the collar?
[x] Do the people in Hot Topic scare you? suree?
[ ] Is the only nerd you like Seth Cohen?..
[ ] Do you watch LAGUNA BEACH?
[x] Do you like pop music?
[x] Do you want/have a little dog?
Total: 5


--Hippie--
[ ] Is your hair long/shaggy?
[x] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?
[x] Do you want to save the animals?
[x] Do you think war is unneccesary?
[x] Do you like classic rock and trippy music?
[x] Have you ever participated in a protest?
[x] Have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree?
Total: 6



--Gangsta--
[ ] Do you act ghetto?
[ ] Do you wear do-rags?
[x] Do you like hip-hop?
[ ] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?
[ ] Do you believe he's alive?
[ ] Do you like afros?
[x] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?
[x] Do you like to dance? [L] to
[ ] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit?
Total: 3


--Emo--
[x] Do you cry often?
[ ] Do you wear hoodies?
[x] Do you like soft music?
[ ] Do people not understand you?
[x] Do you write your own poems?
[ ] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark?
[x] Do you cut your hair?
[x] Are you lonely...once in a while?
[ ] Is "Ohio is for lovers" by Hawthorne Heights, a good song?
Total: 5



--Surfer--
[ ] Do you surf?
[x] Do you wear flip flops year-round?
[ ] Is your hair shaggy?
[ ] Do you wake up before 6 every morning?
[x] Do you own any pairs of shorts?
[ ] Are you tan?
[x] Do you want to be at the beach right now?
[x] Do you hate tourists?
Total: 4




--Geek--
[x] Do you wear glasses? .
[ ] Do you get good grades?
[x] Do you use an inhaler?
[ ] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets?
[ ] Does your mom pick out your clothes?
[x] Are you on the computer often?
[ ] Do you ever get picked on?
[x] Do you look forward to going to school?
[ ] Are you shy around the opposite sex?
[ ] Do you play video games?
Total: 4



Redneck: 3
Goth: 1
Punk: 6
Prep: 5
Hippie: 6
Gangsta: 3
Emo: 5
Surfer:4
Geek: 4

bhahahhaa, wow...can you say styreo-tyes?

12:33PM - oo jeezz

holy fuck! its been so long. i just read my past entrys and i think i might have to puke....*looks sick* connor was a fag, and i never really liked him...i thought i did, i thought i loved him, but fuck no. any way i didnt come on to write a bunch, as i dont feel like it. so here is some random test thing...

If you have 45 or over, you're a spoiled bitch.

[x] a cell phone
[x] a hair straightener
[ ] your own computer
[ ]your own car
[x] good grades
total: 4

[ ] chanel/dior sunglasses/glasses/gucci
[ ]burberry purse
[x] a boyfriend/girlfriend
[x] a curling iron
total: 2

[ ] every fall out boy cd
[x] something from american eagle
[ ] something from hollister
[ ] something from hot topic
[x] a pet
total: 2

[x]some type of trophyh or award
[ ] queen size bed
[ ] king size bed
[x] mini ipod (or nano) or video/mp3
[x]a jersey from a professional team
total: 3

[x] had more than $100 at one time
[ ] monster, full throttle, amp, etc. in your fridge
[x]something related to Green Day
[ ] xanga
total: 2

[x] myspace
[x] make-up
[x] a desk in your room
[ ]a hill in your backyard
[ ] DDR (DVR)
total: 3

[ ] a pair of skis/a snowboard
[x] alarm clock
[x]a pair of ice skates
[x]rollerblades
[ ] treadmill
total: 3

[x] your own phone line (not including cell phone)
[ ] AIM
[ ] Yahoo!
[x] MSN
[ ] ICQ
total: 2

[x]perfume or colonge
[x]bath and body works lotion
[x]necklaces & bracelets
[x]a journal/diary
[x]toothbrush..
total: 5

[ ]yogurt & peaches in your fridge
[ ]x's in your screename
[ ] a birthday in september
[ ] a famous relative
[x]a relative that lives in a different state or country
total: 1

[x] a disowned relative
[ ] an electric scooter
[x] your own bathroom
[x] your own band
[ ] any rock band t shirts
total: 3

[ ] gamecube
[ ]a guitar
[ ] a hammock
[ ] a basketball hoop
[ ] a soccer net
total: 0

[x] a bike
[ ] a mini van
[ ] a relative that lives in Florida
[ ] a vc andrews book
[x] a friend who does alcohol/drugs/smokes
total: 2

[x] bad grades
[ ] a locker at school x5
[ ] a baby
[ ] a pet chimpanzee,
[x] sparkly blue nail polish, every shade and color you could possibly imagine.
total: 2

[ ] a "vote for pedro" tshirt/hoody
[ ] the movie "the 40 year old virgin"
[ ] a promise ring
[ ] a pool table
[ ] swimming pool
total: 0

[ ]trampoline-small
[x]trampoline-BIG
[x] livejournal
[x] flip flops
[x]been to mexico
[ ]been to hawaii
[x]been out of the country in the last 6 months
[x] been over seas in the last 6 months
[ ] steve madden shoes
[x]the sims 2
total: 7

[ ] a ping pong table
[ ]air hockey table or fooseball
[x] a basement
[ ] converse
[x] construction paper
total: 2

[x] markers, crayons, etc.
[ ] coloring books
[x]a nice singing voice
[ ] XBOX
[ ] PS2
[ ] PSP
[ ] sp
total: 2

[x]some type of disease
[ ]rose red movie
[ ]wife beaters
[x]VCR/DVD
[x] a mom or a dad
[x]an older brother(s)
total: 4

[x] an older sister(s)
[ ] a younger brother
[ ] a younger sister
[ ]a sled
[ ]a lake/pond near my house
[x] friends who you love
total: 2

TOTAL: 50....uhoh....but i mean how does like having a deasies make you spoiled?! wtf?

12:10AM - Amy

so right now i am laughing at robin untill she dies. cause i think its fun, as she smells like crap. jk, shes so gorgy i cant keep my hands out of her pockets, and obvuoisly neither can ryan. (eye brows go up and then down) so today i frenched my boyfriend, well actually he frenched me, but then he fell down, any thoughts?! i have no idea what to think of that, when i told my friends they were all like "YOUR THAT GOOD?!" or you have lee's statment, that said that he was undressing me with his eyes, and his boner got so heavy it pulled him over. and as for the fact i didnt see his enormous heavy boner, i dought he had one. so any ways, all thoughts on this are good. what happened exactly, is my bus was just a head of us and i knew if my bus driver saw us kiss she would call my mom (dont ask) and so i kissed him before i had to go, and i was just about to walk away, and he pulled me closer and started frenching me (THANK GOD IVE MISSED HIS TOUNGE IN MY MOUTH LATLY!) and then he just fell over. and i was like erm...and burst out laughing. soooo any way, i think im fucked. no idea what to think actually. so erm...s-o-s!!
and he likes another girl, and i know that, it doesnt bother me as much make me think why he would be going out with me when he could be going out wiht her? cause shes a nongate popular. and im a gate drama nerd. thoughts on that are welcome to...any way im off for now tata

Current mood: confused

10:27PM

1. What is your middle name? Catharine
2. Last person you kissed? Connor
3. What are you listening to right now? what you waiting for (ew i hate this song.../changes it)
5. Last thing you ate? Pasta
6. Last person you hugged? Connor
7. How is the weather right now? Dark, freezing cold!!
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Robin
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Hair
10. Favorite type of pop: Rootbeer
12. City or country? Country
14. Hair color? Blonde
15. Eye color? Green
16. Contacts? nope
17. Favorite Holiday? Birthdays
18.Whens your Birthday? May 5
19. Have you ever cried for no reason? Alot
20. Last Movie you Watched? briget joens diary
21.Last time you were at work? Monday
22. Last time you were out of state/province? Auguest i think
23. Last time you went bowling? Two years ago
24. Something unusual about you? umm....im highly protective (only child, its first nature)
25. Favorite breakfast food? Cake
26. Favorite color? Pink
27. What are you afraid of? Bridges, death, homework, tests. throwing up
28. If you could take a trip anywhere where would it be? Mexico
29. What books are you reading? The virgintity club (shut up its really good)
30. Piercings? 4
31. Favorite movie? Zoolander
32. favorite basketball team? L. A. Lakers
33. What were you doing before you filled this out? Talking to Ryan/nic
34. Do you have any pets? Dog cat hampster 4 fishes tanks
35. AIM? huh?
36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?butter
37. Dogs or cat? Kittys
38. Favorite Flower? Lillys
39. Have you ever been caught doing something you werent supposed to? yup
40. Are you single or taken? Taken <3connor<3
42. Who would you like to see right now? any one of my friends
45. Do you like to travel by plane? love it
46. Right-handed or Left-handed? both
47. If you can be with someone right now, who would it be? anyone? Robin
48. How many pillows do you sleep with? 0
49. Are you missing someone? alot of peoepl
50. Do you have a Tattoo? i want one soooo bad
51. Do you still watch cartoons on saturday mornings? every now and then

Current mood: loved

6:34PM - thingish thing

Start at 100% and take away 1% for each of these you have done in the past or are doing right now
Put Your % before all this title.

Smoked.
Drank alcohol. 1%
Cried when someone died.1%
Been drunk.1% (well tipy)
Had sex.
Been to a concert. 1%
Given a handjob/gotten a handjob.
Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob.
Been verbally/sexually harassed. 1%
Verbally/sexually harassed somebody. 1%
Felt someone up and/or been felt up. 1%
Laughed so hard something came out of your nose. 1%
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before. 1%
Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend. 1%
Been to prom.
Cried at school. 1%
Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.1%
Went streaking.1%
Given a lap dance.
Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.1%
Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.1%
Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.1%
Kissed a stranger.
Hugged a stranger.1%
Went scuba diving.
Driven a car.1%
Gotten an xray.1%
Hit by a car.1%
Had a party.1%
Done drugs.
Played strip poker.1%
Got paid to strip for someone.
Ran away from home.1%
Broken a bone.1%
Eaten sushi.1%
Bought porn.
Watched porn.
Made porn.
Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
Been in love.1%
Frenched kissed.1%
Laughed so hard you cried.1%
Cried yourself to sleep.1%
Laughed yourself to sleep.1%
Stabbed yourself.1%
Shot a gun.1%
Trash taled someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.1%
Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.1%
Been online for 9 consecutive hours.1%
Watched an animal die.1%
Watched a person die.
Had sex and/ormessed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
Pranked somebody.1%
Put somebody in the hospital.
Snck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.1%
Kissed somebody of the same sex.1%
Dressed punk.1%
Dressed goth.1%
Dressed preppy.1%
Been to a motocross race.
Avoided somebody.1%
Been stalked.1%
Stalked someone.
Met a celebrity.
Played an instrument.1%
Ridden a horse.1%
Cut yourself.1%
Bungee jumped.
Ding dong ditched somebody.1%
Been to a wild party.
Got caught stealing something.
Kicked a guy in the balls.1%
Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.1%
Went out with your friend's crush.1%
Got arrested.
Been pregnant.
Babysat.1%
Been to another country.1%
Started your house on fire.1%
Had an encounter with a ghost.1%
Donated your hair to cancer patients.1%
Been asked ut by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.1%
Cried over a member of the opposite sex.1%
Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.1%
Sat on your ass all day.1%
Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.1%
Had a job.1%
Gotten cut from a sports team.1%
Been called a whore.1%
Danced like a whore.1%
Been mistaken for a celebrity.1%
Been in a car accident.1%
Been told you have beautiful eyes.1%
Been told you have beautiful hair.1%
Raped somebody.
Danced in the rain.1%
Been rejected.1%
Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
Punched someone/slapped someone in the face1%

70% hmm i wonder what that means

Current mood: giddy

5:30PM - FUck

so this tottaly didnt go how i planned. eveything is "fucked". nothing went according to plan, i think he hates me. and i think i ruined one of my closet friend ships ive ever had. not to mention one of my favorites. its ruined. never to go back...."he wont run if hes worth it, he wont tun if hes worth it, he wont fun if hes worth it, he wont run if hes worth it...." no matter how many times i say that, the less i belive it. in my mind he will always be worth it. his smile will always be worth it, his everything. and i know hes ran. and i really wish he wouldnt. i wish he would stay here with me. and i wish he would hold me, and never leave me. but hey what are guys for? they take your heart they put it in a blender, then give it back. i just wish it wouldnt happen so much...and from the same guy...for the past 4 years.... and every year i stand lifless crying, with a handful of guck, that i just got handed to me. and the tears come, and in the distance you can hear people gossiping, and laughing, and you know its about you. and you would like nothing more then to go over and rip everyones head off, but know, that its your falt, none of it would have happened if you werent such a fucking moron. i just wish things would get better. fast.

Current mood: pessimistic

6:20PM

You Are Mexican Food

Spicy yet dependable. You pull punches, but people still love you.

4:43PM

so i have a plan, i know what to do now, and that makes me happy....if only i had enough balls, well not balls as im a girl, but enough guts to go thro with it. i think im going to write him a letter, and hope that it all goes through....with what ever needs to go thro with. wish me luck....*takes deep breath*

Current mood: full

7:43PM

good evning everyone, hows life treaten yall? eeww yall...thats sooo Q.B.W.B!!! hahah only a cirten amout of people will know what that means. ok i have 3 candidates
1)is my current bf
2)is a freaken heart throb, and omg...just omg
3)is the guy that i have liked for....5,6,7,8- 4 years
and they all like me, and its like....>.<
i dont know what to do...seriuosly. i want to crawl up a hole.
and omfg im psming today and EVERYONE (except like my friends) made me want to die
i hate them!! and today happened to be the day everyone in the world decided to spred
a bizzilon rumars about me! \_/ (<--mad face)
arg!! if u ever want to be popular, shove ur head in the dirt untill u change ur mind
seriusly....NEVER get into the "cliqu" They....eat you alive, untill ur about to burst
and then they keep going, and u wish you could burst but u cant and u have to live with
it everyday. i mean thats what people strive to be. and i know im sitting here complaining,
but i couldnt handle not being popular, i just relized like this week, i always have to be
the leader. i cant stand someone being more liked, or something then me. im such a self centered
brat....prat....fucked up shit fuck.....stuck up fuck. and the only honest relationship ive ever have
is adams, sicnce that i cant, i'm so in love with other guys. when i was going out with adam i forgot about all other boys
but he didnt think that...he said that i was in love with other people...and then broke up with me
even tho that wasnt true, he was the only person i loved...

Current mood: blah

9:40AM - Sick

hey, im sick, but im going to school shortly. my mom let me stay home and sleep for a little bit longer. which is nice, cause i got to sleep till 9. when i origanly would sleep till 6. my hair is really curly.....hahah. i feel like....i dunno but i feel weird with curly hair. i just painted my nails. because of the musical i cant do colors on my fingers and so there is only a clear coat on them but the toe nails are bright blue, and thats happy. do you know whats kewl? that i can type with out looking at the key board...i never thought that i could do that...but my addiction to the computer changed that thought...but it kinda hurts my fingers typing alot..cause i have really small hands (haha when i first typed that by accedent i typed smell) there i just put my key board up...i doesnt hurt so much. haha brillant i say. so far i have missed gym and in about 40 minutes ive missed drama (damn) i will make it just in time for math wwaahhoo!!! /fake smile. but i want to get there for scicene. ever since i changed classes i lloovvee science. its a blast. theres connor, Ian, Steph, Eck, its awsome. cause i dont have a class normally with them and they are fun people. haha i sound like such a stupid person...if u are reading this you are probably bored as im not that great of a writer, and im just writing down stupid facts. like.....my eyes change color (wich is true by the way) so do kyles, they change to match his outfit (how weird?!) and why do i do () things? cause i mean those are where i put thoughts to difforent statments i make, but this whole thing is my bias, and so they are all my thoughts. blah blah blah...you can stop reading now...that is if any one is reading it, cause im going to rant more. ok so we have like no money, and im prety sure thats why (ew i just sneezed) my grandpa came home is to help buy things. as we have like no food. and my dad hasnt payed support in months. and he used to call me at least once a week, and i havent heard from him and a few months now...and i really liked it when he called lots, cause it gave the illotion that he cared about me and my life....pfft, like he actually would. but i mean...he actually knew everything about me, he new my bf, and my bffs, and i told him everything, and i really thought he cared. but now i dont even think he knows about my play that im in, or that im caught up in school (or at least i was) or that ian is my bf now. and its all cause my mom is taking him to court... i know we need the money, but i would rather starve and have a dad, then anything else in the world. i miss our long phone calls....i should call him...i wonder if he would even answer the phone for me. people with both parents are the luckest people in the world (now people are going to leave comments and be all "u wouldnt think that if you had my parents" but my dad beat me to, he used to thro me against tables, and walls, and he drunk drived, well he still does that, he used to get put in jail all the time for that, and do u know what? i would still give anything to be with him, i wish with all my heart that he loved me)

Current mood: lonely

5:12PM

good day everyone, hows life treating you these days? my life is alright, altho i have this nagging knot in my stomache and it wont go away, and i makes you feel tired, but really jumpey, yet vomitish at the same time. i dunno what to do with it. so im going out with this guy named ian, and hes soooo cute *blsuhes* he really likes me, and thats kewl. him and anna and robin and lisa came to my plan on friday. and it was really fun. anna and robin and lisa and cat and steph all had a a sleep ever together...and it really hurt, i know that sounds stupid, but i couldnt go, and i expected...well not expected, just hoped that they wouldnt do it with out me, but they did. and i know that i have no right to hope that, but its what i did. i mean i hardley ever get to see robin any more, shes always with cat, and steph, and lisa i get to see alot, and anna, i never get to see, and im pretty sure steph hates me i dunno why but i think she does. and i think cat hates me to. cause i just do think that. and so i i think that they are trying to get rid of me. and i have no where to go. cause i have emily and taylor and jackie and them, but i think after a while they would get sick of me. just like robin and steph and cat and lisa and anna are. and seeing the pictures (on carvedstars) cut like a knife i wanted to cry, that sounds sooooooooooooooooooooooo stupid, i mean i should reallu grow up, and get over myself. i wish i could.. but i cant. thats the type i am im extrem jelous. aarrgg why do i have to be such a jealus person, i mean arrrggg!!!!!! i wish i was more like anna, shes having a horribal time at school and shes just sucking it up and sticking thro it, i would be at home balling my eyes out. i wish i were stronger.

5:11PM - monster

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Current mood: sore

7:16PM - Wow, long time no update

ok well, i rode my horse for 3 hours today, im in a horse camp, and we are all advianced riders, so we didnt have to learn on how to like walk ur hores, we got right into kantering and jumps and stuff. my legs hurt *groans* imagan kneeling on monkey bars, you two knees on the out side ones, and one inbetween them, then u fall, can ur self on the middle bar, bounce back up again, and do it all again, over and over for 3 hours. omg i love it tho, you and the horse become one, and you know what eachother wants, and u just feel eachother, its amazing. truley. (if u didnt get the im riding a horse part, you would think i was tlking about sex...eeek! haha)

im Starting work at the theater tomorow! i have a huge part, i have to get evita dressed, and in an hour and a half, she changed 30 times!! gosh im gunna be buisy! but i cant wait

and its me and my bfs 1 month, either the 4 or 5, i think its the 5, he thinks its the 4, and really you should never agrue with ur gf on the date, haha, we are always right.

so any way...thats all i have to say

Merry christmas, and a happy new year

Sarah (haha people would get that if they were at my horse camp)

Current mood: cranky

6:43PM - Baby all i want for christmas is you

*Santa clause cant make me happy, i dont care about the presants underneither the christmas tree. i just want you for my own, more then you will ever know, make my wish come true, baby all i want for christmas is you*

Current mood: uncomfortable

10:58PM - another survy (i know i have NO life)

(x) = Have Done
( ) = Havent Done

( ) smoked a cigar
() made out with a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(X) skipped school (classes)
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) slept with more than 15 people
(X) been called a slut
() had a one night stand
( ) slept with someone you don't even know their name
( ) seen someone die
() shoplifted
( ) been fired
() been in a fist fight
(X) snuck out of your parent's house
(X) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
() been arrested
( ) gone on a blind date
() had a crush on a teacher...everyone remember ms mancuso?
(X) been to Canada
(x) been to Mexico
(X) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar
(X) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(X) eaten Sushi
(X) been snowboarding
() been moshing at a concert
(X) taken painkillers
(X) love someone or miss someone
(X) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(X) questioned your heart
(X) been obsessed with post-it notes
(X) squished barefoot through the mud
(X) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
(X) swam in the ocean
(X) felt like dying
(X) cried yourself to sleep
(X) played cops and robbers
(X) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(X) paid for a meal with only coins...
(X) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) made prank phone calls
(X) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(X) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(X) danced in the rain
(X) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe...not yet...the holidays are afoot...
(X) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(X) blown bubbles
(X) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
(X) gone roller skating
(X) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey wtf mate?
(X) worn pearls
(X) jumped off a bridge
(X) screamed penis in class
(X) ate dog/cat food
(X) told a complete stranger you love them(X) kissed a mirror/window
(X) sang in the shower
(X) have a little black dress ?????
(X) had a dream that you married someone...mac
(X) glued your hand to something
(X) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole/light post
( ) kissed a fish
(X) worn the opposite sexes clothes ......it was a dare!!!
(X) been a cheerleader" "
(X) sat on a roof top...yeah, i wish to do it again sometime soon with some one special
(X) screamed at the top of your lungs
(X) done a one-handed cartwheel[tried]
(X) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours...
(X) stayed up all night
(X) picked and ate an apple
(X) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
(X) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(X) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 5 pairs of shoes...no
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
() gone streaking
(X) played ding-dong-ditch...oh!
(X) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on...
(X) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(X) broken a bone
(X) been easily amused...
(X) caught a fish then ate it
(X) caught a butterfly
(X) laughed so hard you cried
(X) cried so hard you laughed
( ) mooned/flashed someone
(X) had someone moon/flash you
(X) cheated on a test
(X) had a Britney Spears CD
(X) forgotten someone's name
(X) slept naked
(X) french braided someone's hair
(X) gone skinnydipping
(X) been in love
(XXXXXX) been heartbroken
( ) smoked weed
( ) gotten pissed drunk

Current mood: worried

4:28PM

maybe......................maybe not

Current mood: worried

1:17PM

Current mood: cold